Myself

Im happy with my life now.. Happier than before.. With 'u' or without 'u' doesn't make any different..

Ya..last time i tot i cant live without 'u'.. i took such a long time to forget about 'u'.. I'd wasted too much time while im wif 'u'.. Now.. 'u' such a stranger for me.. im not even know 'u'.. Haha..

Thanks for everything.. 'Ur' destiny was not same like me.. 'U' colored 'ur' canvas wif only black mark but i colored my canvas with various of colors as beautiful as rainbow.. ^^

* i ♥ myself & i ♥ him *

Zaman dulu-dulu...

Tiba2 je terkenangkan zaman dulu2 especially zaman kanak2.. huhu..
Rindukan zaman itu... Rindukan kawan2 masa kecik2..


Mula la selongkar balik album lama2.. then terjumpa lah pic zaman kecik2 dulu.. hehe..

Zaman umur setahun - 3 tahun (xingat sgt umur brpa sbenarnya..huhu.. long term memory lost.. haha)

 
Zaman tadika :)

*Pic blur skit coz pic taken using handphone only.. Nan ado scanner nak scan smua pic2 ni..huhu

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Mode: Happy + a bit sad.. Huhu..

Working.. Working.. Working...

Where am i now...??
At office on Sunday.. *sigh*
OMG.. so sleepy..
(-_-)

Mode: Need some sleep la..

Missing..

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say..
I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't..
But inside of me there are words waiting to come out..
And tell you how I feel-like how I miss you..
And how I love you despite my broken heart..
And how I need you in my life..
And especially how much I want you..
But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside..
Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too..
but I'll never know...

Alone...

Loneliness.. That's what i feel...
Live without others by my side..
Struggling to do everything by myself..

Will i be forced to stand alone?
I tried to face the day but...
Do i'll find my real life?
With someone that could help me find the way..

Every night is the same night
Every day is the same day
I've no one to share my life
No one to share my name

I walked the days with a fake smile
And pretending like i'm happy
But deep inside...
I'm so alone
Though surrounded by my friends
I've an empty soul
Nothing inside...
And the bottom never ends...

I cant run away and hide from it
Although i'd like to try
For every night
When i'm thinking about it
A pieces of my soul dies....

I dont know how long it will take
I dare not even guess
For everyday..
When i face the loneliness
It makes my soul feels uneasy...

I tried to fight off the piercing cold
And the painful loneliness
And always hope for a miracle
Which will bring me for a happiness.....



Hope: Still seeking for a good thing

What the......??

In finding some info, I try to Google my nickname "iezpdaus" and do u know what i found? Haha..

U can see as per below....

Mode: Apakah??

I wish.....

I wish.... that i could get whatever i want.. But it's impossible..

Kosong....

Hm..pada zahirnya org melihat aku gembira.. seperti bahagia..
Tapi gembirakah aku sebenarnya?
Entah lah.. aku sendiri tertanya2..
Pelbagai persoalan bermain di fikiranku..

Hidupku terasa kosong..
Terfikir aku sejenak memikirkan hidupku ini..
Aku mahu bahagia.. tapi bahagiakah aku?

Tiba2 aku terasa sebak..
Sedih memikirkan segala yang berlaku dalam hidup aku..
Seakan mahu menangis sepuasnya..
Tapi sudah kering air mataku ini..
Tapi semuanya sudah berlaku..
Masa takkan dapat diundur kembali..
Bahagia yg dicari.. tapi tak semestinya bahagia yg aku akan dapat..

Dugaan.. terlalu banyak dugaan..
Sekarang.. aku mengharapkan sinar kebahagiaan kembali..
Tapi kekadang aku terasa kosong..
Aku tak tahu apa yg aku patut buat.. apa yg patut aku fikir..
Buntu.. aku seperti hilang arah tuju..
Seakan aku merangkak dalam kegelapan
mencari cahaya yg menyuluh di ruangan gelapku..

Aku mengharapkan ada seseorang yg menarikku keluar dr kegelapan itu...
Dan menunjukkan bahawa masih ada cahaya kegembiraan buatku...
Hmm...


Mood: Tak tahu nak pikir apa.. (-_-)

ℒℴνℯ

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Love is a gentle caring..

a quiet concern

deeply hidden in the heart..

A presence always felt

everyday, every minute, every hour...

Love is a gentle embrace

between body and soul..

a quiet touch of the hand

a soft hug by warm arms

a cares of two souls...

Love is a great passion

between hungry hearts..

The intimate exchange

between mind, body and soul...

Love is always caring

always growing

always being there...

Love is wonderful gift

shared by two blessed souls

experiencing Heaven on Earth...

Mood: Love makes me crazy (^_*)

Live for Life

Miserable

My feeling.... Hmm... i feel.......

Mood: Blank, Blur ??

It's Saturday!!

Hi all!! It's Saturday!! How's ur day today? Got any plan to do?
For me, everyday is the same day.. Nothing different..
I'm working today for half day..
After finish my work, dont know where to go.. Just staying at home for the whole day..
If got anything to do or maybe want to buy something.. i will go out for a while and come back home..

That's my weekend!! Such a boring weekend.. huhu..

Mood: Bosan giler

Lonely

Miss ya..

Huhhh...dah lama sungguh aku xupdate blog ni.. Ntah jadi ape ntah.. Skrg aku kekeringan idea + bebanan kerja yg melampau sampai dah xde masa nak update blog ni..

Sebulan dua ni aku mengalami tekanan yg amat sgt.. dr segi masalah kerja dan jugak masalah personal.. Dah separuh gila aku jadinya.. Lepas satu, satu masalah timbul.. Sometimes i feel i dont know how to handle it..
But, God always with us.. Susah mcm mana pun, doa dan tawakal jadi pemangkin semangat..
Mudah-mudahan segalanya akan berakhir.. Amin...

Mood: Gila sasau.. (-_-")

Your Hugs and Kisses

Pearl earring - Wah Chan

Sookaaa!!! huhu.. I love Wah Chan.. bknnya org eh tapi kedai emas Wah Chan tu... Jumaat lepas aku telah dpt sepasang subang mutiara dari Wah Chan secara PERCUMA.. Percuma ok.. xkena bayar satu sen pun..

Diorang kasi sempena hari Wanita Sedunia.. Even it just a small pearl earring but i really appreciated it.. Nice!!

Just get your membership with Wah Chan and u will be rewarded.

What a really stressed life..

 Tension!!!
That's the only word i can say now.....

I think...

I think.... I would like to find another job.. It's not bcoz i dont like my job now. I do really like my job now, even there were certain part that im not really like about our company's management.. Hmm.. What should i do? It's not easy to find new job now..


(Send using mobile phone)

What a bad day..

Huhhh.. Malang sungguh nasib aku semalam... Dah la dr pagi aku dok menanggung kesakitan disebabkan migrain yg menyerang tahap max.. Dlm menahan kesakitan tu pun aku tetap jugak pegi keje..

Bila dah petang, on d way balik keje aku accident pulak.. Ini gara2 kena himpit dek sebuah kereta yg nak mengelak dr sebuah kereta yg lain.. Yg jadi mangsanya aku la... Mentang2 aku bawa motor je.. Nasib baik takde kecederaan yg serius.. Side mirror motor aku je yg rosak..

Dlm x cedera pun aku hampir terhimpit dgn motor aku sendiri.. Nasib baik sempat tahan.. Kalau x..tersepit jugak la kaki aku.. Arini xpasal2 aku terpaksa amik MC gara2 migrain yg xsembuh2 even ubat dah ditelan.. Lagipun badan aku pun rasa sengal2 gara2 accident semalam.. So arini aku perlu dptkan rest yg secukupnya.. huhu...


Moral of the story:
Meskipun kita berhati2 dan berhemah semasa di jalan raya tetapi kalau dah nasib xmenyebelahi kita malang tetap tidak berbau..